THE BIRTH OF MODERN AUSTEN

 "Give a girl an education and introduce her properly into the world, and ten to one but she has the means of settling well, without further expense to anybody."


 For years, I have been forever engaged in the writings of Jane Austen and the simplicity of her storylines with the heaviness and reality that her thoughts surpassed those of her time and managed to poke through a tear in time and make their way hundreds of years ahead of her to my time.


To write about all things Jane Austen would be expected, based on this title; but the truth is I am creating an outlet for my own personal and practical endeavours.

  In this game of life that I am challenged at learning myself on a deeper level to progress forward. If I do not succumb to the inevitable inertia that my life has to go in, then what am I doing with myself?

  I want to know that through all of my goals, successes, failures, challenges, I will be a better person for it, a humble person, and a person who becomes more reflective to be able to learn, grow and change.

   My current challenges are not feeling good about myself and attempting to take care of the shell that protects my insides and that is becoming healthy mentally, to accept becoming healthy physically.
I am currently unsatisfied with my health; my heavy breathing (albeit asthma related), the back rolls that squish against the seat in my car while I drive somewhat uncomfortably to and fro.
I have developed the dreaded nut allergy (later in life than no one should suffer through) but it's there. A gluten intolerance as well as a dairy intolerance and I do not remember the last time I ever felt completely pure and clean on the inside of me. I do not remember a time where I never suffered headaches, or stomach pains, or shortness of breath, or coughing, or painful allergy seasons.

Because I've not been able to recall those times, I am choosing to make that be part of my life right now. A challenge to live freely in health, and in faith.
My mind and body crave to be holy and pure, and I've avoided and ignored it for the better part of 2 years by choosing the things that make me unhealthy. This is my documentation of it.

As well as all of those things are, I would ultimately like o get out more and just live. Confinement of the mind is the worst prison I could place on myself, and I can not concede to that type of life.

Photos will come, because they are the last bit of accountability I have that makes me aware of actually putting myself out there.